Thoughts...

We moved to Kingsland, TX 28.5 months ago and I had such high hopes at the time. I thought the schools would be great and I thought I'd find & make friends, find a good church that we could be a 'family' with, I thought Larry would be able to make it home more often...But none of that has happened. The school was a nightmare for Logan. I've only been able to make a grand total of four friends. The churches are not particularly friendly, nor very welcoming. Larry rarely gets home. And even though we are surrounded by lakes? There isn't a single good place to go to bank fish! Not one!
So, a year a go we put this place on the market after discussing it for months. We've had several offers, but financing has always stopped the sell. And now we suddenly have a cash buyer who wants to close and wants us out PRONTO! That alone scares me!
For a year we've tossed around where we would go...Before we bought this property we wanted to buy in Sanderson, but when it got time to buy there was nothing available in our price range, so we pretty much settled for this one...Well, we thought about here and we thought about there, but we just kept coming back to Sanderson.
Small town in the middle of nowhere. Small highly rated schools. Near our property. An easy drive to and from for Larry. A rail road track & mountains. And now, best of all, several homes within our price range.
Well, I am in process of writing a contract to buy a home I've wanted for a year now...and I am scared.
Am I doing the right thing? Will the school be a good fit for Logan? Will I find and make friends? Will I find a good church family? Will I be able to adapt to the distance from shopping, medical care, family back in East Texas? But more importantly, will this deal even fly???
Perhaps that is the basis for my fears...Will this deal even go through?
And then, will this house be the right one?

I've wanted to be out there since I was a child and now that the possibility is so close, you'd think I'd be excited...and yet all I feel is this FEAR!
I want to cry because it looks like we might be leaving. Not so much for myself, but for the good friends Logan has made and how much he will miss them.

So, tonight I'm praying that if this is the Will of God, that He allows everything to fall into place perfectly and everything to go smoothly and without a hitch. But if it is NOT the Will of God, that He allows it all to fall through and quickly so...because I only have 10 days till close!